Monday, September 28, 2009

My Goals To Myself

Here is my contract with myself:

Starting weight: 233

1. journal on my ipod every day what I eat.
2. celebrate every pound lost without saying "but I still have loose".
3. Either do interval training or yoga every day with the goal to get at least 30 min of exercise a day.
4. Keep going to belly dancing class, no matter how awkward I feel.
5. Keep it real with myself and acknowledge matter how small. I can't move forward if I don't deal with the now.
6. I will QUIT feeling sorry for myself that I'm back to where I started. It is what it is.
7. NO LOOKING INTO THE PAST. It's over and done, and can never be changed.

First weight loss goal: 200 (loss of 33lbs) by the end of the year. This may seem like a cop out, but it's not. There are holidays in there and I'm not superhuman. LOL

Hitting The Wall

We've all had those times when we've hit that wall. We don't like ourselves, we don't like much of anything, and we all know we want to change.

Well I'm there....again.

After my 2nd really big attempt at loosing weight, I'm pretty much back to where I started-and I don't want to be here anymore.

I'm an emotional eater, I always have been since my parent's divorce. Instead of learning how to deal with my feelings, I decided to bury them....and I've paid for it for many years.

This blog has been started as a place for me to vent, keep track of things (good and bad) and just a place where I can get things out.

Welcome to my story.