A Watched Pot

Funny how you can be sooo close to something, yet never seem to get there. That's where I am right now. I'm so close to loosing my first 5 pounds, that I can taste it. But you see, that's half the problem.

Now may people have different ways of weighing in and keeping track. Right now I happen to weigh in on Mon, Wed, Fri-this way I can kind of keep track of what I'm doing and to make sure I'm going down the right path. It's more for reassurance really, but also to show myself that I'm really doing it. I've felt that the past few times I've started and stopped and somehow I'm afraid of failure this time. (And yes I do know my weight will fluctuate, and this rant isn't about that-it's about me being too eager. Waaaaayy too eager.)

Somehow I thought week 2 would be easier. LOL

Monday I weigh myself (official weigh in) and I'm down 4. Wednesday I weight myself and I'm up a bit (ounces really-pittance). Today I weigh in (after telling myself I wasn't going to do it) because I worked out last night and thought for SURE I'd be 228 so I could give myself that darn HOT PINK BRACELET.......

nope.

dang it.

Sooooo, one of two things are going to happen. Either I'll actually just maintain this week, since I had such a big drop last week (a la Biggest Loser wk 2) or I'm actually just getting ready to drop some weight because I've been the same consistent weight the past 4 days.

Isn't the suspense amazing?

I think I'd need to bust out the low fat buttered popcorn.

I know this is not a race, I know it takes time....and this post was more of a "poke fun at myself" kind of thing, rather than a real rant. Those will come soon enough I'm sure. So for now I'm sitting back, laughing and dreaming about hot pink jelly bracelets. LOLOLOL

My Goals To Myself

Here is my contract with myself:

Starting weight: 233

1. journal on my ipod every day what I eat.
2. celebrate every pound lost without saying "but I still have ....to loose".
3. Either do interval training or yoga every day with the goal to get at least 30 min of exercise a day.
4. Keep going to belly dancing class, no matter how awkward I feel.
5. Keep it real with myself and acknowledge everything...no matter how small. I can't move forward if I don't deal with the now.
6. I will QUIT feeling sorry for myself that I'm back to where I started. It is what it is.
7. NO LOOKING INTO THE PAST. It's over and done, and can never be changed.


First weight loss goal: 200 (loss of 33lbs) by the end of the year. This may seem like a cop out, but it's not. There are holidays in there and I'm not superhuman. LOL